Tuesday, December 10, 2013

MS and Fear






Multiple Sclerosis is such an unpredictable disease that if your not careful, your life can easily be run by fear. My mom now has a noticeable gait deficit after 21 years battling MS. She experiences constant fear about falling in public. Since she is in the stage of MS where it progresses pretty quickly, she has been falling more often due to her losing her balance and the heavy feeling in her right leg. This past July I got married and it was important to me for my mom to walk me down the aisle because she had been the one to raise me by herself. When I formally asked her to walk me down the aisle she had major concerns about walking down a long isle with tons of people watching. It was like I could FEEL her fear. I let her know that in that moment, it would be just me and her; don't think about anyone else. She continued to offer up ideas about my father, brother and or uncle walking me down the aisle; she was scared. Her last words to me before she decided to say yes was " I don't want to take away from your day" and my reply was "We are in this (MS) together, get your flat shoes ready"
 

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